This morning I heard my mom ask my 8 year old: “So Evan, what are your new years resolutions?”. He looked at her perplexed and was quiet for a second…”Ouma, I don’t know what you are talking about!”. And I thought, yes indeed my son, because really, who needs another list of things to do/be/accomplish/ aspire to. Not this weary momma! But truth be told, I do need a list, to remind myself of what I wish for, what I wish to not forget. I thought I’d share, who knows, there might be something here for you as well?
- May 2015 be about BEING and not HAVING. If I am going to BE anything, let it be wise. if I am going to HAVE anything may I have perseverance to run the race set before me, may I have the spiritual gifts that await me in every day and that I so often miss
- Sometimes I wonder if I am living my purpose? But surely, just because I am uncertain about my purpose, that doesn’t mean I can’t live ON PURPOSE. There is purpose in ever day. I refuse to waste decades wondering what I was made to do, I’d rather live every day as though I am already doing it. (I found this Thomas Merton quote specifically inspiring)
- Let this be the year of NO FEAR, remembering that the phrase “Do not be afraid” is found 365 times in the bible. I for one certainly need this daily reminder from God to live fearlessly and so as I face 365 new tomorrows, I will not take fear along as my companion.
- This year I want to use my yes’s and my no’s sparingly, treating them as a precious resource, of which each person only get’s a certain number. I want to use mine with CARE and with PRAYER
- I want to exchange being productive this year for being PRESENT. Presence will make my life into a greater gift than productivity ever could.
- I will not let social media define the ways in which I will be SIGNIFICANT this year. The most significant things I will ever do are not likely to yield much in the way of applause (or “likes”, if you will?). But the most revered people in heaven will likely be people that we have never heard of. How today’s actions echo in eternity has little to do with the amount of popularity they glean
- This year I will again READ ferociously. An unread book is like an unlived life.
- I will not put the phrase “Be more positive” on my new years’ list? Forget about positivity, about half full and half empty cups. Instead I remember the directive of my faith, that because of Jesus, my cup is filled to OVERFLOWING (Ps 23 v 5)
- Focus my eyes – no, not on my next holiday, but on ETERNITY. It’s hard when you’re a mom to not let the mundane (read: dishes, homework, deadlines, today) loom larger than eternal life. One of my daily prayers this year will be that God will use the ordinary moments to both awaken my spirit and sanctify me, in line with the rhythm of 2 Cor 4 v 18 – while we do not look at the things which are seen, but the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.
- Wow…this is a hard one. I will continue to try to let go of my desire for PERFECTION. I want to start today. Faith is living God’s perfection in imperfect situations. God’s perfection is Jesus, who lives in me, making me able to respond perfectly to the difficult and challenging circumstances in my life. And offering grace when I don’t.
- I don’t want to be a “stuff manager” this year. In everything I gain in the flesh this year, in whatever I buy for my kids or add to my house or lifestyle, I strive to manage the balance between SIMPLICITY and COMFORT.
- I will again this year preach the gospel to myself, viewing that message as the single greatest change agent available to me. (Thank you JD Greear – see quote)
- I will stop allowing my phone to let me miss: looking at my children, really listening, talking nonsense with my family, engaging around a table with friends. Every good moment is not an Intragram moment and the Instagram moments of others will never, can never give me the unforgettable MOMENTS I could have with those I love. Being present, truly present, can.
- This year I wish to stop my persistent overuse of the phrase “HURRY UP“
- Only God has the right to determine my WORTH, and according to Him I was worth dying for. Even if nothing changes about me in 2015, everything about me is changed because of Christ’s life, death and resurrection. He will always have the final say.
May your 2015 be clearly marked with signposts of God’s love and grace, the amazing blessing of His revelation, and may much be added to you by way of maturity and faith in the madhouse that is mothering! Feel free to read my post about doing some spiritual planning for the new year here